Sometimes it’s too hard to keep acting strong, and all you can do is break down…
This is awesome! Love Lions.
|me:||i want to lose weight|
|me:||i want small arms|
|me:||i want a flat stomach|
|me:||i want to be thin|
|me:||i want skinny legs|
|LOL when I see any food I crave.|
Yah know, enough is enough. Enough of feeling sorry, sad, angry, self concisous, and any other words that stem from negativity. It’s time for me to put my foot down and stop letting people treat me in ways that make me feel unworthy. If you want to walk out of my life, there’s the door, I’m not stopping you. And this goes out to more than one person. I have done a lot of thinking, and yeah I had my flaws as a friend or a gf, but who fuckin doesnt? Who doesn’t make mistakes? If there is anybody out there that doesnt, please let me know, I’d like to meet them. It’s come to the point where I have to be more selfish than I have been. Too often have I found myself conforming for other people. Too often did I think my personality wasn’t good enough because I felt always judged. Too often did I feel bad for saying how I really feel. I’m tired of people not accepting me with my flaws after dealing with theirs. I’ve spent too much time beating myself up for certain people walking away. In the end, I thank those people for not only helping me realize my flaws, but also helping me realize that they weren’t true people in my life. Friends stick together till the end, because no damn person in this world is perfect and those that can make it through the toughest shit are meant to be true friends. And this goes towards any relationship. There’s a reason why there’s so many divorces in this country, people give up almost the second they see a flaw they assume is unchanging. And what makes it more probable that way? the lack of faith. If I did something wrong and you told me I’d never change, what makes you think I even want to try for YOU when you don’t even believe in me? At that point, I’d rather just try for myself and if I do manage, I’ll be thanking those that supported me and saying “screw you” to those that didn’t. There’s nothing wrong in criticizing. If you tell me you don’t like something, then tell me. I should have the same right in return. Too often do relationships fall apart because of lack of this communication and then because people expect to be put on a high pedestal, too often do relationships fall apart anyway because something was said that caused someone to get butthurt. Stop having a stick up your ass people. Be thankful that someone has told you how you are sometimes. Its true, you do get annoying, it’s true you are negative sometimes, its true, you are being unfair in some cases. It happens. Nobody is perfect. If your friend or significant other tells you that and they are still there to forgive you, support you, and love you regardless, hallelujah. I have acknowledged my flaws thanks to certain people. I know I’m not perfect. I never said I was. That’s why I am even more thankful when they are still there for me. Those are the people worth fighting for. Yes, you have to be smart for how you say things to people, but if someone says something concerning to them and they open up, at least be considerate. Act how you would want them to act if you felt the need to say something to them one day. Overall, I’ve realized people will always come and go. For the moment they are there, you learn. For those that are there longer, you cherish. And in the end, life goes on.
You determine whether we communicate or not. I was the last one to say anything anyway.
If I stop showing, its because you stopped showing you cared.
I’m tired of hearing people say I wasn’t being the happy person I was years ago. Its really time to show the world I am and will be that person again, and better.
The effort to store away and not mention it as much as I can starts today.